I wish you a happy 54th birthday!
Today I thought a lot about you. More than usually.
I tried to find a memory I cherish most, a funny anecdote. But I couldn’t find one. There was no story that I remember very well.
However, I do remember many things:
I remember the way you styled my hair (just put in lots of hair clips and make small tails) – our “bandit hairdo”.
I remember driving bike with you, sometimes really long tours. I remember buying gladioli with you for mom after bike tours. I remember when we once had an encounter with a goose family on a bike tour and how the gander tried to attack us.
I remember playing badminton with you in the courtyard. I remember you mowing the lawn (I loved the smell of it).
I remember you eating peanuts – and when I discovered that we eat them the same way: First eating the halved ones, then the complete ones.
I remember our staring contests. Sometimes I won but most of the times you made me laugh and I was glad for losing.
I remember shaving with you. You shaved your real beard, I my imaginary one. I loved when you applied the shaving foam on my face and choosing and aftershave afterwards was always so much fun!
I remember the night you gave me “Papa Bär”. I remember when I wanted to give him back to you a couple years ago – and how you told me, that he’s mine and you want me to keep him.
I remember when you had to stay at home and during my lunch breaks, when I went home, how we drank coffee together and talked and I loved it. I loved every single story you told me.
I remember your hugs. I remember the smell of you. And everytime I see the colour yellow I immediately think of you. Also when I see roses.
I wish I could have given you a better present than one lousy daffodil I stole from a front garden…
I feel like thinking of you and remembering you is one of the greatest gifts I can give to you. And at the same time I feel like I’m letting you down, because I don’t remember every single story you ever told me and I don’t have a funny anecdote I could tell.
My gift to you is this promise: I promise to you, that I will never ever forget you, I will always love and cherish you and every thing and every memory you gave to me. I will care for mom and my brothers and your parents.
I hope that one day we’ll see each other again and we’ll be able to celebrate your birthday together. As a whole family.
your favourite daughter Mareike